When I was in middle school, I said to myself that I wanted three things in my life. Three wishes, and I’d be happy: to be a wife, mom, and author.
I have all three of these things today, and I am happy. The only thing is for me – I keep running away from writing. I keep thinking either it’s not enough or I’m not enough. If you ever wonder why I keep trying new things, new ventures, that would be why. And the thing is, I better quit running away from writing, because it keeps pulling me back in, and it will not let go. If it’s your calling, it won’t ever let go.
I wish I could make other ventures work. I really do. But I honestly don’t have the heart to keep trying to push them when they don’t take, and I think they won’t take because I need to be a writer, and write, and write, and write.
So, for now, I’ll write. I’ll work towards being an author again, and be happy with the accomplishments I’ve made so far. And I’ll also enjoy my beautiful family – my husband Ben and our four children.
I’ll be what my younger self truly wished for: wife, mom, and author.